officiallilith:

Honestly I know this will sound silly coming off of my last shitpost but words can’t convey how much I love Flowey as a character. It means a lot to me that he didn’t just ~become evil~, he slowly went downhill while trying his damn hardest to love his former friends and family until his- Asriel’s- innocent childlike curiosity drove him to killing. It’s really interesting that Flowey doesn’t just kill because he loves killing, but because he tried kindness over and over again and was failed by it. Showing mercy got him killed. 

He was reborn in a world where his gentle goofball dad is killing children with hope in their eyes and his wise leader mother locked herself away out of fear and spite. He has to witness his father living life as if nothing ever changed, even though he has coffins in his basement and blood on his hands. He has to watch his mother adopt child after child to replace him and then pretend as if she never knew them when she lets them go and they get killed.

He has to live in a world where he sees all this pain and misery- overpopulation, crushed dreams, people waiting to die in the dark- and attributes it all as his fault for not committing murder. His purpose in reincarnation wasn’t to make it all right, to be the prince of this world’s future– it was an accident. A mistake. And the only person he thinks that would be able to understand him, his best friend, is dead. Because of him.

It really tugs my heartstrings just how earnestly he speaks to ‘Chara’ in New Home during a No Mercy run. How he’s been driven to madness playing with people that he literally can’t see as sentient beings rather than just lines of code, but he knew Chara would come back for him, he just knew it. How this child who thinks of murder as ‘playing’ would be willing to put aside godlike power and a world of innocents to enact vengeance on just to live in peace on the surface, in the sunlight, with his best friend– even if he knows he could never really love them anyway. It’s not a healthy ideal, mind you, but still, Toby managed to portray Flowey so beautifully and avoided making him just an irredeemable evil in a game about forgiveness.

This doesn’t even touch upon his post-pacifist speech and how he could choose to let Frisk live a life of kindness and peace even if he can never understand it. How he finds some measure of closure and tries to put Chara’s soul (or lack of it) at rest too. I didn’t mean for this post to get so long. I just really am grateful for Flowey.